-i've been thinking-

A weekend accompanied by diarrheoa, sore throat, flu and headaches is not the way you want it. On the bright side,at least i got myself a new pair of shoes. Who says you can't go shopping even when you're sick? You just have to thank the people who invented toilets cause i feel i visited it more times than I actually went inside shops. Haha!

MST's in a week. Am I prepared for it? A simple NO tells the whole story. Hopefully within this one week, at least a tinge of hardwork is pulled off. If not, we'll see. We REALLY shall.

Till then,

Rilek Jack

-I Just Love Her So Much-

Woke up late today. Did my hari raya haji prayers at the 8.30 timing because the 7.15 on already ended at around 8. Prayed with mostly bangladeshis but it's pretty much ok I suppose. They are afterall brothers of islam. Well at least those in the mosque are. Heh. Helped out with the admin side mostly. Last year already got myself dirty inside the cage with the sheeps so this year, a cleaner job for me to handle. Alhamdulillah, everything was smooth though there were moments my patience was tested, but that happens almost every year. No use getting pissed/angry during this day agreed? Aunt's place was next after friday prayers. Didn't stay till the end cause I need to meet my family too. Feels great to catch up with family and spend some quality time.

Home sweet home only came at around 9. Watched this show about a girl named,"Raudhah" on Suria at 9.30. That show, really moved me. It touched me. It made me realise, how greatful I should be when I'm not in that kind state. Broken family. Having a younger sibling diagnosed with cancer and eventually passed away. Btw, the younger sibling in that show, is Raudhah. Throughout the show while i was watching, I tried putting myself in the different character's shoe. I'm not a single bit embarassed to say that tears eventually did flow. It flowed like an overflowing sink when Raudhah can no longer talk and eventually can only write to communicate with her mum. Reason why my tear flowed like mad is because, it made me think how much communication have I done with my mum. With my parents. What if one day it just so happen that all of a sudden I were to become like her state? It would be too late wouldn't it?

After the show, mum saw my red eyes and a rudolphy red nose and commented," Sejak-sejak dah masuk theatre nie, sensitive betol ehk kau tgk criter smpi boleh nangis". I took that as a compliment and answered,"Menjiwai watak". Hahahaha! Macam Paham right my answer? Oh, wells.

Till then,

Rilek Jack

-Hari Raya Aidilfitri Performance '09-

Why oh why must I actually pick GEMS to be at 8 on a Thursday? If I had known that it's going to be difficult for me to wake up for it every Thursday, i would've chosen another timing. A timing that doesnt involve me having to wake up early every Thursday. A timing perhaps in the afternoon on every Wednesday i believe was the most suitable option back then. But it's too late now isn't it? Now all i can do, is to hope to survive the remaining semester having to wake up at 8 every Thursday. I've already missed 4 GEMS out of 6 classes. Bad huh? I guess, I better be ready for a warning letter from the school. *sighs*

On another note, Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha to all Muslims. And to those performing their hajj pilgrimage, insyallah pulang dengan haji yang mabrur.

Till then,

Rilek Jack

-The colour is just so striking isn't it?-

I'm feeling rage. I'm feeling angry. I'm feeling frustrated. I'm feeling annoyed. I'm feeling mad. I'm pissed. But to think back,what's the point? If people have childish views on things,I guess it's pretty much their problem now isn't it? No use wasting my time to actually feel like what i'm feeling to people like them. By giving remarks like what they did, it just proves how some people, despite them being in a POLYTECHNIC can have a very immature mindset on things. The smallest of things. How young is a person in a polytechnic? Ans:17. And to think that by the time you're 17, you'd at least grow up and mature. Not give remarks about who i'm befriending or whoever i'm with because they are my friends too. They'll be more than my friends than you guys can ever imagine. You guys? For me to even consider to label as friends, i'll have to reconsider because right now, I can't even put myself together to say out the word friends to you guys. Immaturity and childishness at it's peak was what i witnessed just now. Among all the people, it's you guys? Guys who are the only ones wearing uniform in school. Guys who are suppose to go sailing next year and are suppose to spend at least a year at sea. You guys?? I'm not saying i'm THAT perfect. I have my immature side too. But unlike you guys, I know when to act my age.

"ORANG BEGITUKAH YANG DIPANGGIL KAWAN??"

Till then,

Rilek Jack

-Muker tak perlu. I know. Hahaha!-

2 lecture classes was all I have for today. Y8.com accompanied my boredom throughout both lectures. SISPEC came after and seriously, that place really reminds me of my past when i was in NCC. How I used to have camps there. How I used to have to march around to places everywhere i go. Annoying. Though that place may seem to be boring because it's actually a place for NS men to go, I feel that place really helped and actually developed me to being who I am today. That place was where i got my Staff Sergeant rank when I was in Sec 4. Go do some research on that rank that i used to hold and you'll find out in what way have i developed. =)

Meeting and motorbike practical came after sundown. Meeting, there's nothing much i have to elaborate on because it's confidential. Let's just see how friday goes. As for bike pract, it was fine. Alhamdulillah that i reached BBDC back safely after having to have my practical on the road. However, after failing TP once, honestly,the feeling to have to go back there,go through revisions,more practice and have to wait for another upcoming TP date just sucks. But what can I do. That's life for you. I look forward for the upcoming TP that I have booked. Let's just pray that I'd pass this time round. A few more months before i have to sail (that is IF a shipping company come anytime soon). I can't fail another time. I just can't. Haix. But what if?

Till then,

Rilek Jack

Finally! Fique is back in the blogging world!

Before I begin,i'd like to thank a good friend of mine, Syed Arif Anwar for helping me out with this blog of mine. If it wasn't for him,this blog,would be far from what you're seeing right now.

So, thanks alot Arep. Owe you one.

Anyway,been quite awhile might i say since i last blogged.

Alot has happened.

Will be a VERY lengthy post if i were to list every single one of them.

Highlights of my life that has happened recently:-

1) Legally 18!
2) Bike license
3) First GPA (2.62)

4) First pementasan (Muzikaraya 09-Jom Balik Kampong!)

5) Muazzin Course

I guess that's pretty much some of it. Obviously I can't possibly remember all of it. Those are afew that are still clear in my mind. Others if there's anymore,will be listed on another post,insyallah.

Life's been good. Though previously I used to be attached, but i guess, now that i'm single, thank god i have friends. Who says you need love to live right? However, I didn't say that it's not something unnecessary. Perhaps for now,it is for me. Like what i always tell my friends,"When love is there, it's there. You don't question somebody anything that revolves around love because to me, it's just something natural that hits us all of a sudden without us realising it." Right now, i've yet to feel it. Perhaps due to what happened to my previous relationship, I am just not ready for another one perhaps. It's too fast I feel. I do not want to do anymore mistakes. I do not want to hurt another girl. I just don't.

On a lighter note about love. I can't be anymore happy,contented,overjoyed and whatever more words that simply describes happy, for 2 of my friends. One's a Man n the other a Lady. They just got attached. I name them Jay-Z n Beyonce. Beyonce innitially, didn't want to open up for anybody. But i'm glad that eventually she did and she couldn't have chosen anybody else better for her,I feel. I'll pray for the both of you to have a smooth relationship. However I'd like to quote from Qayyum,"Smooth seas doesnt make a good seaman while smooth relationship doesnt always make a good couple". There's definitely bound to be ups and downs and I hope you guys wud be strong to encounter it both together. Especially the down part as it's the pinnacle where it either makes or breaks a relationship.

Lastly,to a friend,i handed you a gun wit a bullet in it. You were suppose to shoot him as I just wanted what's best for you and i felt that it was. I TRUSTED YOU. But instead, u gave him that gun which he had used to shoot me. I'm not dead. Just wounded. Are you happy? When i asked you why you did what you did, you stayed silent. Coward. And now,you're expecting me to go to you first? Sorry,but it ain't happening. If you just so happen to be reading this, I want 2 things from you. One, an explaination. Two, a sincere apology.

Till then,
Rilek Jack